046 "...the slipping out of light from darkness..."

tonight will be a sleepless night again.
I need to take five, after 3 and a half hours non-stop writing for my Colloquium paper.
so, here is an entry that I made during last Ramadhan.
I've been keeping this for so long. Now, I'm going to publish it.

It's about an article that I've read somewhere and I would like to share it.
Besides, its also a reminder to me as well. I hope this will encourage you in what ever you do.

Thus If you are wealthy, then ponder on the humbleness and generosity of that Great Prophet who reigned sovereign over entire Arabia and won over the hearts of every Arab notable through love...

If you are among the week, then take reference from the Prophet's life in Mecca under the rule of the horribly oppressive idolaters...

If you are a triumphant, reflect on the Prophet of courage and submission who routed the enemy at the battles of Badr and Hunayn...

But, Allah forbid, should you become defeated, then remember the Prophet walking patiently and courageously amid his wounded and martyred Companions at the field of Uhud, having comlpletely yielded to Divine Will...

And if you are a teacher, just think of the delicate, sensitive, and affectionate Prophet conveying the pearls of his heart to the Students of Suffa by the Masjidun-Nabawi...

If you are a student, picture the Prophet sitting before Jibril A.S at the moment of Revelation, cautious and motivated, filled with respect.

If you are a preacher, a counselor calling to the good, then give ear to the pleasant voice of the Prophet flashing sparks of wisdom from his heart to his Companions at the Masjid...

If you are left without an aid in your want to protect and communicate the Truth and elevate it, then take a look at the life of the Prophet who proclaimed the Truth to the ignorant and called them onto guidance at a time when he was deprived of all aid in Mecca...

If you have broken the resistence of the enemy, leaving them incapacitated and devastated evil to proclaim the Truth, of the Conquest, humbly and thankfully entering the sacred turf of Mecca, on camel back as if to fall prostrate, despite being a victorious commander...

If you own a farm and want to put things on track, then draw a lesson from the Prophet of competence who appointed the most able to revive and administer, in the best possible way the lands of Banu Nadir, Khaybar, Fadak after seizing possession of them...

If you are lonely, the reflect on the son of Abdullah and Aminah, their dearly loved orphan of innocence...

If you are a teenager, closely consider the life of the youth, the future Prophet, shepherding the stock of Abu Talib at Mecca...

If you are a trader set out with caravan loads of goods, ponder the integrity if the grandest man of the convoys destined for Yamen and Damascus...

If you are a judge, recall his just and prudential move in intervening to replace the Black Stone at the verge of Meccan notable going at each others' throats...

Then turn your glance once more to history and take a look at the Prophet in Medina at the Masjid'un-Nabawi delivering his verdict with the greatest conceivable justice between the poverty stricken destitute and well to do rich, as just as one can imagine.

If you are a spouse consider the deep emotions and compassion of the Blessed Husband of Khadijah and Aisha...

If you have children then learn the affectionate conduct of the father of Fatimah, the grandfather of Hasan and Husayn...

Whoever you may be and in whichever circumstances you may find yourself in, you will find Muhammad S.A.W as the most perfect master and most beautiful guide at all times and places.

(Source: The Exempler Beyond Compare Muhammad Mustafa by Osman Nori TOPBAS)

To conclude, whatever we do, follow our prophet Muhammad S.A.W/ sunnah.

040 "...Hold my hands, and never let go..."

A random entry.

Past few weeks, I've been busy with the induction course, Sambutan Maulidur Rasul at Yayasan Al-Jenderami and the launching of GO GREEN! campaign. Now, I need to focus about what I'm going to achieve in my life. I've been asked about it so many times, and I'm still thinking.

I'm asking myself..

me: Put aside the symbiosis program. What If I didn't get it,the symbiosis? What's your plan?working? further study?

Iman inside: I want to do Master. Most probably research cause I find it less tiring than taking course work. Plus, I can work. Other plan is, I want to travel around the world. That have been my dream ever since child.

me: How about your career?

Iman inside: How I'm going to decide? what am I good at? What I love to do so that I don't get bored while working? hmmm...need to do a paperwork about it. I'm still working on it. O ALLAH the most gracious and the most merciful. Please show me the best way to do it right for my career, my dreams, and the planning of my life.Amiin.

end of monologue.


because of this is a random entry. so here is a random picture too. Yes, This is Madrasah Yayasan Al-Jenderami, where I had been for the last Majlis Sambutan Maulidur Rasul. I feel peace when I'm here. Hope you will too. ~____^

A quote before I end this:

"Champions aren't made in the gyms.
Champions are made from something they have deep inside them: a desire, a dream, a vision."
-Muhammad Ali-

037 "...no mess is too messy, but my messy mind is too messy..."

@#$%^&*()%^&*()_#$%^&*(????

What is KPI stands for?*sorry, I don't know.Do you know?sure you do*
It is stands for Key Performance Indicator(KPI).

How you do it?
They will differ depending on the organization. A business may have as one of its Key Performance Indicators the percentage of its income that comes from return customers. A Key Performance Indicator for a social service organization might be number of clients assisted during the year. A school may focus its Key Performance Indicators on graduation rates of its students. taken from About.com.

*Okay, Now I know!*

What happen today is something good. An apple a day keeps the doctor away. Yes, I love this quote! It have different lots of meaning. Right now I'm kind of in messy mind condition, will get it clear first. Later will write again.Jaa. *Off to typing maniac.hahaha.target>>beat adian!!*

035 "...You're Handsome.."

It's been a long time I haven't update my blog here. Since there is a person asking me why I didn't update my blog. So here I will update something that I've fallen hard for the last few weeks. XD

Something that actually I didn't write it in my blog here. It's fandom things, mostly I will write in my LJ here.



But for no reasons, I just feel like to write in here. But not that I will write again after having it write here.hahaha. Sorry I'm too lazy to write all over again. Just I will add more pictures from the Korean Drama, You're Beautiful. LOL.



Note to sis Mala:
I know you don't have interest in korean or Japanese drama. But just to give some entertainment for working people.hehe.:P Feel free to read my public post at LJ. Here I added song of the day. Hope you like it. Title of the song I hope by FT.Island.

ft island i hope mp3 | lyrics

free music downloads | music videos | pictures

034 "...even precious memory will fade, someday..."

210909
2nd day of Raya-I cherish every moment I have.

For the first time, Raya without my eldest and youngest sisters.
My eldest sister went to her in-law house while the youngest in Canada.

But still for me, it's the best Raya of the year because I don't have to think about my schoolwork anymore. No design. No submission date to rush on. I enjoyed it to the fullest. Plus my job right now is so carefree, nothing to stress on. Yippee!! ^____^V.

Besides, it's been a while that we get to join the family convoy. It was because of the restricted holiday in Singapore. They only have a day off for Raya. If first Raya is on weekdays, we can't get to join in the family convoy cause they will do it during weekends. By the time we are already back in KL. Moreover this past 3 years, there is time when I didn't go back during Raya because of my school projects.*cries*

Now that I've enjoyed it, I'm happy. ^______^

In addition to that, here some video of my beloved cousin, Adam, played the guitar on request from us(the girl cousins). He played 2 malay songs and 1 english song but I didn't know the title.lol.But Enjoy! *I wonder if he joins the Archustic audition.will he pass?XD* ~___^

033 "..unexpectedly good things comes and tomorrow's weather will be fine.."

110909
My first kusessians reunion that I've ever been.

We have Iftar together at chop n steak restaurant at Seri Kembangan(near UPM). My friend made a reserve there. We gathered at UPM mosque.

It was my first time pray and break the fast at UPM mosque. They also provide food but differ from UKM mosque.In UKM, they will serve it in a tray and share it with 3 or 4 people. But in UPM, They will break the fast with light food and water first. Then, after maghrib prayer they will serve the food individually.

We went to the restaurant after maghrib prayer.

people who came: Ufairah, Dahiyah, Ayu, Ermadina, Ijok, Fatimah, Syahirah, Fiza(erma's housemate) and me

actually it was more to dorms reunion>> Siantan 3(Ufai, Dahi, Ayu, Erma, Ijok, syahirah and me), teratai 3(fatimah and dahiyah).

It had been about 7 years I have not met Syahirah, Ijok and Fatimah since I left the school end of my form 2. Their hilarious like always.I'm happy meeting all of them. ^_____^

This sunday, I also have another Iftar with my Kisas classmate.InsyaALLAH. Looking forward to meet them too. ~___^

032 ^_________^

Something new.

At last, everything goes as plan.
Thank you Allah.
You are the greatest of all.

From today onwards.
New routine. more hectic. but joyous to come.

O' Allah, the most gracious and the most merciful.
Thank you ALLAH for always be by my side
Thank you ALLAH for always hear all my problems.
Thank you ALLAH for granting my prayer.
I will never be alone.

Thank you ALLAH.

031 "...Ramadhan to come..."

salam to all muslims.

tonight is a starting of Ramadhan.
Hope this Ramadhan will be better than before.
wishing all of you Salam Ramadhan al-mubarak.

Maybe this Ramadhan is our last Ramadhan, who knows?
We should use this month to the fullest to gain Allah's reward.

and we have a Qadr night to strive too.
Let's do our best to ring on the jackpot.

Semoga Ramadhan kali ini membawa seribu makna dan pertambahan iman dalam mendekatkan diri pada NYA.InsyaALLAH.amiin ya rabbal 'alamiin..

030 "...return from fantasy..."

after a week of holiday.
I feel good, of course.

real life return.
no fantasy.
T_____T

I want to go on holiday again.
once more.

I'm still thinking of my destiny.
that put me on pressure.
So, I just put it aside.
Like my friend said," Just follow the flow".

Life must go on.
Nankurunaisa.

somehow, someday.
I'm sure I will find my future.
^____^

029 "...ON trip..."

While waiting for the bus to come, I'm borrowing dayah's*my archy junior* laptop for a while.
I'll be going to JB-Singapore trip tonight.

today is a pre-reunion of akmalien 00-02:
event: Fatah's wedding
location: Antara Gapi, Serendah(Fatah's House)

convoyed 4 cars
people who joined:
me & my brother, 'Aqilah,Fauzan, Fatimah, Jana, Dayah, Fariza, wan, aizuddin, apiz, Shida and her bf, Lona, Mukhlis and Fana Nasri

one by one my friends got married.
and most of it is guy.
should be ladies first,NO??

so whose next from akmalien?

note: will update in detail later with the picture after I came back from the trip.the bus arrive already

Jaa

028 "...me and him..."

me and Him,

true love, one destiny,

thru destiny, find love.

Nankurunaisa, It's a destiny






Note: No offense!

027 "..L.U.C.K.Y..."

it takes me so long to write again in here.
so before July end. I would like to write something in here.

It's Lucky to have my 27th entry today
muahaha*evil laugh*

I'm happy right now.
something happened.
I will call it a summer dreams event.
Nankurunaisa.
muahaha*evil laugh again*

so just that I want to tell.

I AM SUPERB HAPPY. Ureshii~~

026 "...don't expect anything..."

people keep asking me what I'm doing right now. So here is my current status:

status: X-site Supervisor @ Part-time staff (x-site is a kiosk in UKM located at PUSANIKA)

future planning:
1) Further study(Master or BSc Arch@part2) next fall 2010 @ 2011.
2) Reseach Assistant (R.A)
3) Work in firm to gain experience before further study. Maybe in September.God's will.

Everything regarding JPA thingy have been settled. Now, waiting for them to called me in any post that I applied. I even applied for PEGAWAI SIASATAN. hahaha.

so thats all for now. till my hand meet the keyboard again. ^_____^

Jaa.

025 "...nothing..."

It's been a week I don't post any entry.

I've been so busy this past few days because I'm ON VACATION.haha

but after the vacation, I need to settle down so many things>> claims, SPA registeration, RA approval, my graduate transcript, my graduate status..*sigh*

Everything cannot be settle until my result for topical study is out. right now my registration status: LEWAT MENDAFTAR. That means I cannot graduate yet.

So need to wait until 15th of July. till then, I need to wait and see.

What to do?

024 "...completing the uncomplete..."

Alhamdulillah.
I just came back from my grandparents house in Singapore.
It's a good family gathering on Sunday. All my uncle and aunts gathered at my grandparents house. i've got motivated a lot for what I should do next cause I'll be graduating soon.

For now, I think I am clear with what i'm going to do next.
Alhamdulillah, Allah had shown me the way. I"m not confused anymore.

Last friday, after school I went to UKM to get an office stamp for my thesis claim application. Suddenly, I saw my structure lecturer in the studio. He asked me what am I going to do after this? I simply said that I want to be RA(Research Assistant) but I don't know who yet. He offered me, if I want to be his RA. haha. I never thought of being RA to him.

For a few seconds, I thought that it is bad if it's about calculating the structure system. I am no good in that field. But then, he just asking me if I can do programming using Visual C. He caught my interest in no seconds. I love doing programming so much that I can't bear to not accepting the offer. Haha. He ask me when I can start. I just say, I can do it immediately. But he says I will need to wait until I get my transcript first or not I need to use my SPM results that means less paid. The office said that I can get the transcript by this week.

So I think it's a good opportunity that ALLAH gives me. After all, I remembered I prayed I want to work as a programmer someday. And this is it. Allah have granted my wish. Even it is not started yet. I'm getting so work up for it. It is not my real job, of course. It's just for me to have a peace of mind from design for a while. I will start my real work later after graduation. I probably hope that I can continue my master or part2 next year, InsyaALLAH.

today is the due date for UKM-symbiosis application.
needs to write a 300 words of essays, 3-min video and fill in the application form.
the vid is done. The essays needs to write another 100 words.

till then, jaa~~

023 "...In Confusion.#$%^&*%!.."

I'm confused!

being a teacher?
or give a full commitment in my biz and preparing for next year workshop?

New semester going to start soon. and of course I'll be in UKM for a while. There still a lot of things that have not been settled yet. But I don't know, I'm in a mess right now. I can't give full commitment in both carrier. I need to decide only one. T____T

Lately, I've done a lot of thinking. but I can't make any decision. T_____T

O Allah the greatest of all. Please guide me in making a good decision. Amiin.

021 "...ON Gabai..."

I'm too lazy too update for yesterday event.

so go here, if you want to know about what happen yesterday.

thanks. :P

later, then.

018 "...No need to forget..."

There is a character in manga I read recently that reminds me of someone........

***************
"But maybe we might meet again after 3 years, and become a couple again!" Abe-kun said.

"But You don't need to push yourself to forget it. Let it be natural,"Uehara-kun replied.

"Listening to you, My heart feels heavier..Because you had a crush on Yuririn for 6 years,"Abe-kun said.

***************

a scene taken from Good Morning Call manga.

I like what Uehara-kun said. In my opinion, the harder we try to forget, the more we remember. But you will eventually forget it if we let it be...naturally. It's like you memorizing Al-quran but if you don't read it everyday you will forget. same applied here.just it is reverse. Sure it takes time to forget. But that's life and how human being is created. It's human nature to forget.

Human in arabic also call al-insan.
Al-insan = forgetful, pelupa.

But of course for who memorizing Al-quran(Hafiz or Hafizah) they have their pantang larang in order to remember. I just make it as anthology that people will forget if they don't maintain it.

okay, I guess I will stop my bubbling here. If I continue it'll be too long.
Till then.

014 "...keep the faith..."

Just now I got a called from my friend asked me If I can be a replacement teacher for primary 1 and 2 in her mom's school. Subject to be teach is Pendidikan Agama Islam(islamic education). The requirement is graduate from Islamic school for SPM.

I'm shocked.

It is not that I don't want to be.
just... am I qualified enough?
It's not an easy job to teach 7-8 years old kids. -__-

But after a few taught
Why not I just give it a try.
A phrase that I heard recently from my friend, "..the more you read the more you don't know.."
It can be applied here. In learning something, there will never an end till we died. Because Allah is great. He creates a sea of knowledge thats has no end to it. We as a servant needs to learn it.

and teaching is a learning process for me to enhance my knowledge too.
God's will. I have to keep the faith in me.

note: but this is not confirmed yet because I will only finish my study by end of June. She asked for early June. If that the case. It couldn't be help.

013 "...undecided2..."

I don't know.
What I will do next.

work?
maybe...

or further study?
will be...but long way to go.

or change my destiny?
It must be...a programmer, perhaps?

I don't know.
What I really good at?
What is the best for me?
architecture? is it?

I don't know.
I kind of confused now.
me, myself don't think I'm suit to be an architect.
so what should I be?


"O Allah, the Greatest of all. Please help your poor servant to decide. I don't have the courage to further my study as I am not so good as others. I want to work but I'm afraid I can't do the work. O Allah, give me strength to move forward and decide what I really want to be.You know what is better for me.Please make a decision for me, Ya Allah ya RAbbal'Alamiin. Amiin"