Friday, May 29, 2009

016 "...Sometimes..."

Sometimes Allah breaks our spirit to save our soul.

Sometimes Allah breaks our heart to make us whole.

Sometimes Allah allows pain so we can be stronger.

Sometimes Allah sends us failure so we can be humble.

Sometimes Allah allows illness so we can take better care of ourselves.

Sometimes Allah takes everything away from us so we can learn the value of everything he gave us.

Make plans but understand that we live by Allah's grace.

-A birthday massage from my friend, Hakim. I wrote this because I want to remember this motivation words. Thanks Hakim-

Thursday, May 28, 2009

015 "...my twin.."

ahh. it's already 12 mid night.
Happy birthday my twin, daya. Iman & Hidaya it's a good combination, right?

your twin?
yes, my twin.

Just to sing this for me, myself and my twin.

Happy birthday to you
Happy birthday to me and you.

Happy birthday to both of us.

Happy birthday to us.

May ALLah bless both of us always. Amiin.

Now we are 22. Wow. I don't remember since when we've been 20,huh?. T___T
Time sure flies.

wish you the best birthday, daya.

just a short birthday entry.
I need to continue with my work. chow.
till my fingertips meet the keyboard again.

Sunday, May 24, 2009

014 "...keep the faith..."

Just now I got a called from my friend asked me If I can be a replacement teacher for primary 1 and 2 in her mom's school. Subject to be teach is Pendidikan Agama Islam(islamic education). The requirement is graduate from Islamic school for SPM.

I'm shocked.

It is not that I don't want to be.
just... am I qualified enough?
It's not an easy job to teach 7-8 years old kids. -__-

But after a few taught
Why not I just give it a try.
A phrase that I heard recently from my friend, "..the more you read the more you don't know.."
It can be applied here. In learning something, there will never an end till we died. Because Allah is great. He creates a sea of knowledge thats has no end to it. We as a servant needs to learn it.

and teaching is a learning process for me to enhance my knowledge too.
God's will. I have to keep the faith in me.

note: but this is not confirmed yet because I will only finish my study by end of June. She asked for early June. If that the case. It couldn't be help.






Saturday, May 23, 2009

013 "...undecided2..."

I don't know.
What I will do next.

work?
maybe...

or further study?
will be...but long way to go.

or change my destiny?
It must be...a programmer, perhaps?

I don't know.
What I really good at?
What is the best for me?
architecture? is it?

I don't know.
I kind of confused now.
me, myself don't think I'm suit to be an architect.
so what should I be?


"O Allah, the Greatest of all. Please help your poor servant to decide. I don't have the courage to further my study as I am not so good as others. I want to work but I'm afraid I can't do the work. O Allah, give me strength to move forward and decide what I really want to be.You know what is better for me.Please make a decision for me, Ya Allah ya RAbbal'Alamiin. Amiin"




Friday, May 22, 2009

012 "...my one and only..."

picture taken by me


I dedicate this to my one and only little sister, Qurratul 'Ain a.k.a Adikqu. * I don't think she even know my blog. like I care?..No.haha*


Dear Adikqu, *If and only if you read this*

I want to wish you a Happy 19th Birthday. May Allah bless you always.Strive for whatever you want to be. We will support you. For today, do thanks Mama for taking care of you for 19 years. Please be matured a little will you? :P

Take care.
May you have a happy and nice day. ^_~

Your beloved sis,
Atih

011 "..no end..."

Internet connection for this past few days are not so good. especially at night. I don't know why suddenly they cut off the internet connection during night time. Furthermore there is no coverage for faculty wi-fi. T___T but it's ok, It is not the end of life. :p

Where am I?
at Duranta Studio* merangkap studio tahun 5 juga dikenali sebagai bunglow AF.haha*. My studio is called Petunia studio.

Why I'm still here while everybody already back to their hometown?
I still have my thesis and working drawing subject + work at X-site + teach science and maths subjects for stuff kids(more like private tutor).

When I'll be going back?
It depends. I can go back anytime at my convenience time. Haha..

I mean, When will you really finish all this?
Don't know. It feels like no end. after this need to prepare for accreditation. *sigh*. long way to go. Life will never ends until death. Must make a full use of it. Thus no regrets later.

-end of interview to oneself-

Tuesday, May 19, 2009

010 "..in the middle of the end..'

Last night, I went to the ship* restaurant in Kg.Baru with my course mate. that end up me going back home. haha. :P

*the ship it is not real name, we name it like that because the design is like ships disembark at the jetty. It have 3 ship in it if i'm not mistaken. real name >> steak n chop.

Tomorrow, 20th May, is external review. It means end of design. Yay!~~*Mari berlibur lagi :P "

But it is not the end of the semester. My thesis is waiting for me to be written. T_T. Everything will gonna end on 20th June. Another 1 month.

Is it really end?
I don't know until my result out. T__T, what if.............err............ no if. Don't want to think of that.
For now, tawakal. Nothing to regrets. I've done my best.

archi words>>

external review
means all the students projects will be reviewed by outside panel such as the practice Architect, the board of PAM(Persatuan Akitek Malaysia) or other architecture lecturer from other universities. Here the result can be changed too, depends on their thought.

Friday, May 15, 2009

009 "...work, work, work..."

nothing much to write.
so little time but too many works to do.
but need to write something in this little blog that are now in process to be updated frequently.

the chronology of what I'm doing for the past, now and then.

10-13 May : drawings, drawings, drawings..so many drawings to be completed before 14th of may.

14 May: submission and presentation. After submission, there are so many things that have been criticized by the lecturer. It needs to be changed and upgraded before the internal review this monday, 18 May. *baru jer teringat nak balik umah jap after submission and plan nak g career fair ngan abg weken ni tapi nampak gayanya tak bleyla.soryla abang eh.huhu.sigh*

15 May: release stress for a while after a few days just stay in the studio to do works, works, works and load of works. Thus need some peace of mind for a while. I went to Alamanda with my studiomate. eat big apple. eat nasi ayam. eat cendol. eat rojak pasembur. eat mexican bun. eat. eat. eat. It's all about eat. When we want to release stress we eat a lot without realising it.haha. *sebab tula makin sihat dan membesar :P*

16May: back to work, work, work...drawing, 3D, 3D, 3D.. another 2 more days with no sleep.

Iman berusaha!!

archi words>>

Internal review : review by internal lecturer. that means all the lecturers from first year to fifth year will gather and see all our presentation board and projects in a semester. It will be reviewed at the end of every semester.

what can we get from this internal review?
our marks can be upgraded or downgraded. It depends on how other lecturers think. For example if we get B from our studio lecturer. but other lecturers think, we deserve B+ by looking to our presentation board and drawings, we can be upgraded to B+ and vise versa. This is a crucial time where everybody struggle to upgrade their board.


Friday, May 08, 2009

008 "...undecided..."

I don't know
what should I write.

I don't know
how to express feelings.

I don't know
I have no idea.

I want to write.
I want to express.
but I always forgot what is happening around me.

Why I forgot? because I don't write.
Why I don't write? because I forgot to write.
This is me as human being always forget.
This is the life of undecided me.

to be continued...



CAUTION!!!

design countdown >> 5 days left before submission.


Tuesday, May 05, 2009

007 "...Because of You, I'll do it...."

NURUL HIDAYAH ROSLAN tagged me. Ida Please read this,Ok.

She tagged me in facebook. but I refused to do it there, so I'm doing it here. I will just answer it with the first answer that come out from my brain. Don't expect too much. I warned you this is superb long Q&A. *sigh*



ONE OF YOUR SCARS, HOW DID YOU GET IT?

----can't remember----

WHAT IS ON THE WALLS IN YOUR ROOM?
A pharmacist calendar.

WHAT MUSIC DO YOU LISTEN TO?
anything that suit my soul.

DO YOU KNOW WHAT TIME YOU WERE BORN?
yes. It's 10.23a.m * if i'm not mistaken :p*

WHAT DO YOU WANT MORE THAN ANYTHING RIGHT NOW?
Free world

WHAT DO YOU MISS?
my scale ruler. It's gone ToT

WHAT IS YOUR MOST PRIZED POSSESSION(S)?
Necklace with my name *birthday present from my parents*

DO YOU GET CLAUSTROPHOBIC?
Yes when I'm lil kid.

DO YOU GET SCARED IN THE DARK?
Yes and No, depends on how dark is the place would be.

THE LAST PERSON TO MAKE YOU CRY?
Karina and Yuta-kun

WHAT IS YOUR FAVOURITE COLOGNE / PERFUME?
anykind that suit my taste. not too strong but just nice to smell.

WHAT KIND OF HAIR/EYE COLOR DO YOU LIKE ON THE OPPOSITE SEX?
black and spiky hair.

WHERE CAN YOU SEE YOURSELF PROPOSING?
in my house.haha.. *no meaning*

COFFEE OR ENERGY DRINK?
coffee is bitter, energy drink is better.

WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE PIZZA TOPPING?
Pepperoni and Hawaiaan Supreme.

IF YOU CAN EAT ANYTHING RIGHT NOW, WHAT WOULD IT BE?
Takoyaki.. YUMMY!!

WHO IS THE LAST PERSON YOU MADE MAD?
----I can't remember----

WHAT WAS THE FIRST GIFT SOMEONE EVER GAVE YOU?
birthday gift from my parents after 1 year I was born :P

DO YOU LIKE ANYBODY?
not just ANYBODY. but SOMEBODY.

ARE YOU DOUBLE JOINTED?
double jointed?what does it mean?

FAVORITE CLOTHING BRAND?
Nope. As long as it is cotton and bestwear.

WHAT'S YOUR DREAM CAR?
Toyota RAV4 -2 doors

DO YOU HAVE A PET RIGHT NOW?
Nope and never will.

WHAT KIND IS IT?
So kind.

WOULD YOU FALL IN LOVE KNOWING THAT THE PERSON IS LEAVING?
If it is my destiny. As long as it can make him happy. It's a Yes.

WHAT IS THE BEST WAY TO TELL SOMEONE HOW MUCH THEY MEAN TO YOU?
express it with words and show it with care.

SAY A NUMBER FROM ONE TO A HUNDRED
79.5

BLONDES OR BRUNETTES?
Neither one

WHAT IS THE ONE NUMBER YOU CALL OFTEN?
7-11

WHAT ANNOYS YOU MOST?
guys act like a gedikbeauty- Mak Nyah to be exact.

HAVE YOU BEEN OUT OF THE MALAYSIA?
Yes.

YOUR WEAKNESSES?
Difficult to make decision

MEET ANYONE FAMOUS?
Yes. the cashier at Famous amous.

FIRST JOB?
Trainee at Imaar Architect

EVER DONE A PRANK CALL?
Never

WHAT WERE YOU DOING BEFORE YOU FILLED THIS OUT?
renewed my driving license

HAVE YOU EVER HAD SURGERY?
Nope.

WHY DID YOU FILL OUT THIS SURVEY?
Nurul Hidayah Roslan tagged me. *Ida baca ni smp abis. Kalo tak, tak mo ckp ngan awk lagi*

WHAT DO YOU GET COMPLIMENTED ABOUT MOST?
Don't know

WHAT WOULD YOU DO IF ALCOHOL BECAME LEGAL?*the original question asked if illegal.it's already illegal.so no need to answer. I change it to LEGAL*
Nothing would change. say ni to ALCOHOL :P

WHAT DO YOU WANT FOR YOUR BIRTHDAY?
a remembrance

HOW MANY KIDS DO YOU WANT?
As many as Allah would give me. HE knows the best.

WERE YOU NAMED AFTER ANYONE?
Nope.

DO YOU WISH ON STARS?
Never.

WHAT DID YOU DO THIS MORNING?
renewed my driving license

WHAT DID YOU LAST EAT?
Chewing gum

DO YOU LIKE YOUR HANDWRITING?
Yes. even it is just scribble.

WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE LUNCH MEAL?
Pecel lele>>nasi putih+ikan keli goreng+ sambal *lele means ikan keli*

ANY BAD HABITS?
Yes. Sleep in the class *always regret it. but couldn't help it*

WHAT IS YOUR MOST EMBARRASSING CD ON THE SHELF?
Nothing

IF YOU WERE ANOTHER PERSON, WOULD YOU BE FRIENDS WITH YOU?
Yes, absolutely :P

HAVE YOU EVER TOLD A SECRET YOU SWORE NOT TO TELL?
Yes. It's rarely occurred but its happen, I blurt it out without noticing. I'm sorry. my bad. But I do keep people secret.

DO LOOKS MATTER?
50-50

HOW DO YOU RELEASE ANGER?
smile and beristighfar banyak2.

WHERE IS YOUR SECOND HOME?
my studio

WHO IS YOUR FAMOUS/ ACTOR/ SINGER CRUSH?
Too many to list. one of it Tamaki Hiroshi.

WHAT WAS YOUR FAVORITE TOY AS A CHILD?
Polly Pocket

HOW MANY NUMBERS ARE IN YOUR CELL PHONE?
Don't count

DO YOU USE SARCASM?
Never, I think.

HAVE YOU EVER BEEN IN A MOSH PIT?
Mosh pit?what is that? say No to unknown question.

WHAT DO YOU LOOK FOR IN A GUY/GIRL?
who always remember ALLAH, jaga solat and can guide me to the right way.
who will always love and accept me the way I am.

WHAT ARE YOUR NICKNAMES?
Iman (my parents, sister and friends), Atih(my lil sister), Atom(friends in KUSESS), man(almost everybody like to cut it short. even though my name are already short)

WHAT'S YOUR FAVORITE ICE CREAM FLAVOR?
Caramel + Vanila + Top Choc

WHO/WHAT DO YOU MISS MOST RIGHT NOW?
my design *Iman, g wat design skunk!!*

HOW MANY WISDOM TEETH DO YOU HAVE?
Don't know

DO YOU WANT EVERYONE TO ANSWER THESE QUESTIONS?
Nope. It will burden other people to do this. because it is superb long.

WHAT ARE YOU LISTENING TO?
Beethoven-virus.

LAST THING YOU DRANK?
Sky juice

LAST PERSON YOU TALKED TO ON THE PHONE?
my friend >> Alyaa Najwa *alyaa bangun!bangun! g renew lesen!!*

THE FIRST THING YOU NOTICE IN THE OPPOSITE SEX?
Surface then attitude/manner

FAVORITE THOUGHT PROVOKING SONG?
Don't know

FAVORITE THING TO HATE?
Yet to know

FAVORITE DRINK(S)?
Abah's teh tarik- the best in the world

FAVORITE ZODIAC SIGN?
Gemini

FAVORITE SPORT?
Archery * last time played when I was in PASUM. Then don't know where can be found. T0T*

WHAT IS YOUR HAIR COLOR?
black, brown, or white?you may choose only one.

EYE COLOR?
brown or black?can't see it myself. can you see it??YOU tell me.

HEIGHT?
158cm

SIBLINGS?
2 sister, my brother, me and youngest sister. total:5

FAVORITE MONTH?
May -It's my birthday and school holiday.

YOU LIKE SUSHI?
Yes!

LAST THING YOU WATCHED?
Godhand Teru ep04 RAW

FAVORITE DAY OF THE YEAR?
Every day with my love ones a.k.a my family :P

ARE YOU TOO SHY TO ASK SOMEONE OUT?
Yes to guys*exception for emergency cases*. but No to girls.

KISSES OR HUGS?
Both are better.

RELATIONSHIPS OR ONE NIGHT STANDS?
Relationships. marriage to be specific.

WHAT WAS THE LAST THING YOU BOUGHT?
steamed rice X-site

WHO IS THE LEAST LIKELY TO ANSWER THESE QUESTIONS?
me myself.
......
......
......

Finally, I'm arriving to the final questions. *sigh* Here my last answer...


WHAT BOOK ARE YOU READING?
THE PLAN-ARCHITECTURE & TECHNOLOGIES IN DETAIL magazine cost RM60*worth to buy, because its include the detail drawings and specs*





That's the end of it. Thank you for read it. tiring isn't it?*sigh*

Ida are you satisfied now? ~_^

Sunday, May 03, 2009

006 "..low spirit.."

place: Duranta Studio
Date : 3rd May 2009, 2 o'clock in the morning


Iman Inside: Iman, don't sleep. You have to do the detail section!

Iman: I don't have any idea. What should I do? *that studip ramp make me wants to crush it into pieces* .
It makes me so tired that I want to sleep!

Iman Inside: Then, still Don't sleep. read your Professional Practiced notes. your exam is on Monday! Come on Iman, get up!see yin,pnaz and kak fara how spirited they are.GET UP!!!!FIGHT IT!!!

Iman: I'm tired. I want to sleep.Zzzzzzzz...

Iman Inside: Oh nooo!!!..zzzZZZzzz. *maka iman iman pun tertumpas juga dek hasutan nafsu yang menyelebungi diri*

Yesterday. I don't know what happen to me. I've come back from home with high spirit to do my design. But see what happen to me. It's all because of the ramp. My spirit have gone down to earth that nowhere can be found. ToT. I don't like this feeling. I need MOTIVATION to rise up my spirit. HELP ME!!! *syooh..syooh..setan g men jauh2!!*


Kata-kata untuk menaikkan semangat that my father always said it to me:

"Allah tidak akan mengubah nasib sesuatu kaum itu,sekiranya kamu tidak mengubah apa yang ada di dalam diri kamu sendiri."

tapi diriku masih memerlukan bantuan dariNYA:

"O ALLAH,the most gracious and the most merciful. The creator of all.
Please help your poor servant to get through all this. Please guide me and give me inspiration to continue my design.Amiin."